Pressure

It has been far to long since I have posted in my blog (as my dear friend Julie reminds me on occasion). Oddly enough, I find myself not wanting to post because I feel pressure about what to say. In reality, so few people follow this, and all that follow are close friends, I should not feel pressure at all. I should just share.

Life has been a bit busy lately. I have been on an emotional roller coaster with work - oscillating between feeling the need to find my next challenge and reengaging into the great things about my company. I am currently at the latter state. In addition, this semester has proven to be far more challenging than the last. Honestly, I am thankful though. Last semester was too easy for a doctoral program. I would not have held my degree in high regard if the entire program would have continued in that manner.

This semester the work load has stepped up considerably. We are reading roughly 100- 150 pages per week and have papers almost every week. Last week, I read a 200+ page doctoral dissertation and had to summarize it in 7 pages. Sounds relatively easy, but it was quite difficult. Now I am working on a 20 page literature review of leadership in business. I am finding myself in a sort of "analysis paralysis". I am quite concerned that I am not doing enough literature review... Leadership in business is SO HUGE! Well I have to get over this stage, because I must begin writing to hit 20 pages in a week and a half.

Personally, Ann and I are doing VERY well. Having so many things on my plate makes me value her company and presence in my life even more. We try to carve out time together whether having dinner together, watching a TV show (quality time folks!), or staying in bed a little longer in the morning, so we can talk. All of it is more and more precious to me.

My promise to myself is to write in this a bit more. Sharing my thoughts and frustrations not only gives you insight into what is happening, but provides clarity for me as well. Off to do more reading, but first, I am taking an hour for myself with a massage!